Birth Control: My Latest Discovery
About 8 weeks after Cooper was born I had the Mirena put in. For those of you that may not know, the Mirena is an IUD, or Intrauterine device. I thought this was this was the perfect solution because we really didn't need another baby, and my only options for BC were the progesterone-only mini pill or the Mirena because I was breastfeeding. I am an awful pill taker (Cooper is proof of this). So I opted for the Mirena. I don't have to do anything and I don't have to worry about it for 5 years!
So for the past year or so I have been completely in love with my choice of BC, even recommending it to friends! Until I got to the reproduction chapter in my Anatomy & Physiology book. It discussed some forms of BC and how they work. I was not happy at all with what it had to say. Evidently, although the Mirena does prevent the egg from being fertilized to some extent, it also just won't let it implant!
I firmly believe that life starts as as soon as egg and sperm are joined into the zygote. So to me, this is pretty much murdering any babies that might be trying to form. This is unacceptable. I am so upset with myself that I didn't do the research BEFORE I allowed the thing to be put inside me. I read the Mirena pamphlet front to back, but of course they aren't going to tell you this! JoEllen and Jessi pointed out that because I still haven't really had a period, I don't even know if I've ovulated or not, so I can't know if anything happened or not. I feel better about it because of this and I'm trying not to make myself sick over it, but its hard not be at least a little mad at myself. I want the thing gone, plain and simple. I will not be using the pill either because it does the same thing. I don't need to get pregnant right now mostly because of school, but at least I won't be killing anymore babies.
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Hi! What a great blog you have! I too struggled with a choice in BC. In the end we chose the condom and charting for the same reasons you did. Although, until I get regular again, charting will be difficult!
Don't beat yourself up too much, you didn't know! Now you do and your doing what's right for you.
I actually became aware of this when I attended that Radical Womanhood conference. We discussed how children have become an inconvenience so we decide how many we want to have rather than how many God will give us. At first I had the same reaction you did. After a little bit of time to calm down and reflect here is the conclusion I came to...God is not stopped by birth control. My cousin had both her kids while on birth control. Also, you were not taking birth control wanting to "kill babies". You are aware now and can take an action you think is morally right. We are children of God. We go through the same learning processes children do. So basically don't beat yourself up about this one. A friend of mine who is an OB explained to me that our body naturally does not let some fertilized eggs implant. The BC is not making us do an unnatural thing. I do not know if we will use BC after this baby or if we will just "count days". I would prefer to "count days" but Jon has to feel that same conviction also.
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